I see it now, the come back, the path, the questions and the answers

I can’t help it; sometimes I like to be on the losing side. I like to be losing, because then the come back is ever so sweet. I can see a wave of the greatest come backs this year. I do not mean with teams, or politics. I mean with those I hold dear. I see the possibility of friends getting ready in their minds to fight. Fight the good fight. Something we tend not to do in our day to day lives. We take the easy way out. Lord knows I do. What does it take to have an unwavering constitution to not “cut corners” and “go the distance”. It seems I have lost my way in my life, resting instead of running, giving up instead of standing up. Now I mean these things in my life not my work. In my work I always go the distance. I need to push more energy to my life to have that same resolve for precision and good decisions. I give too much to my job, too much time, too much effort, too much of my life. I realized why I do this. It’s because I no one thinks I can do this job, while they always say “good job” it’s not without their doubts. I know what it is they see, when they look at me and they wonder “how?” How can this be? He looks like a slacker, rose colored sunglasses and isn’t a fit person. Now I could change my image, but wait, weren’t we always taught that who we are is “okay”. Well we all know that is bullshit when it comes to working in a corporate office. Funk that noise. I will dress and look how I want. It’s not like I am wearing a goofy skirt to work. While I continue to prove myself everyday I wish not for their praise but rather their understanding that I can do this job of CM, QM, IT, Network, Graphics Design and support. I can do it all. I am sure of my skills and determination. I hope they will as well. Back to this come back, I see it is setting itself up right now. I am ready for it. I am ready to start along the difficult path. I hope to reach the end of my path with few casualties. So what do I need to do? Work less and feel more, listen to music of my life and let it guide me down my path with much haste, passing by the passengers of my life so my pain will be my own. Let each moment of pain stand for something more than those of days past. Bleed for my future, knowing what I am capable of. Sweat for the devastation once delivered to me. While a monster I was once, I will not be again. Changes have occurred on the inside, hope drives my will and heart. I feel there is a wealth in me. It is soon time to dig deep and deliver that which dreams can’t be measured but the nightmares can. We don't know who we are until we see what we can do.

And if that isn't inspirational, blow me.